This year has taught me that being myself is the best thing I could ever do. Also not caring what others will think because those who mind don't really matter. You don't need those in your life. You are just not compatible with them. That's life. You shouldn't supress your character because you think you need them in your life. And believe me, if you act natural, if you just do whatever feels good to you, you're going to meet the right people. The people who think that you are just great! That you are the right person for them and they are going to be the right people for you. And also I've learnt that sometimes things don't go right, sometimes you can't get what you want. Sometimes you try really hard, you give your best and still fail. And even though I can't say I'm over it, I can't say I've put my "failures" behind, I can say that I understand that that's how life is. And I have to go through this pain and it really does make you grow.. It helps you set the right priorities. It helps you find out what you really need and want and what you should change to get it at some point. I've learnt that not matter how much devastated you feel, not matter how hopeless and tired you think you are, you should get out of bed and give yourself a chance to feel better. Get up and put on some clothes, get out of the house, see some familiar faces, or just walk among some strangers, sit on the beach and watch the waves, pet a cat or a dog, do something that makes you feel less sad and more alive. And yes, sometimes this is not going to work. Sometimes you're going to end up at your house at the end of the day, more devatated than the morning you got out. But you're going to get through that and the next day you're going to try again. And again and again. Because you owe it to yourself. You are all the most important person in your life. And something is going to go right at some point. You are going to be happy eventually and you're going to learn how to stay that way. How to keep toxic people out of your life and how not to care about little things. And how to get what you want. Some day you're going to learn how to take care of yourself. But right now you just have to give all you have, so that you can get through this day. Do whatever you need, be a little selfish, you deserve it. You need to keep yourself on your feet.
This what these last months taught me. Life is a bitch but I have to get through this. And most importantly, I can.
This what these last months taught me. Life is a bitch but I have to get through this. And most importantly, I can.