Insomnia hit me again tonight. Thoughts about everything mess with my head. Melancholic songs play on repeat in my mind. Sad moments run before my eyes. My laptop is the only light in my room. Darkness is my friend. At least for tonight. I'm feeling lonely. I'm feeling lonely and alone. I am alone. Noone is around. I look out of my window. Lights are coming out of the houses around me. It makes me wonder. What are these people doing? Are they alone too? Are they having the time of their lives? Are they having fun? Are they planning their future? Or did they just left the lights on and went to bed? The stars are shinning. They give me hope. It's a quiet night though. There are cars passing by but I'm used to that sound. I need something different. I need to hear someone laugh or sing. Something different. I need someone to show me how life is supposed to be. How I could change everything and be happy. I need that person in my life. Someone to show me how to break away from here. Where are you? Are you coming? Or should I stop hoping?
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